There must be something in the air here that makes people suck.

Breakups are over-rated anyway but become especially painful when
1. You can't give me a reason why
2. You say it's my fault
and 3. I wasn't through... I still love you.

I feel so adult (and alone) because unlike my breakups in high school or early college years, I don't find myself calling my best friend and being pissed or texting him over and over again begging to "fix it with me."

Instead I'm blogging (nerd).
Just kidding.

Instead I called my Mommy and cried. I understand now what they mean when they say you get along better with your parents as you get older. Five years ago I would have been slamming my door and screaming that "I'm never coming out again and I hate my life so go away Mom!" Now, my mom is the only person I want to talk to and the only one I know who will listen to me just because I need to talk. She genuinely hurts right along with me because she hates hearing her "little girl's heart break." Which only goes on to make me cry more.

Thank you Mommy. You're just what I needed right now, even if nothing is really fixed.

Next. Since I'm having a crappy night anyway I'm just gonna get it all off my chest...

Bitch in my office who's name starts with a C!
You know who you are...
Or don't because I'm waaay to polite and laid back in person to tell you what a bigot you are.
It is absolutely absurd to say that a woman can be genuinely bisexual but that a man cannot. You're clearing feeding off our culture's opinion that girl-on-girl is hot while guy-on-guy is faggy.
(If you ask me though, I think you've got some well justified insecurities about where your current fuck-buddy's interests really lay.)
It's hypocritical to say it's ok for a female to be attracted to their same sex but not for a male to be so. It's an unfair double standard and I CANNOT BELIEVE I wasted twenty five whole minutes of my precious time trying to make you see the exclusive bias your thinking presented and why it isn't right.
I completely wasted all the effort some poor tree in the African rain forest put forth creating oxygen today ON YOU!
Ugh. I'm so disappointed, I expect more from myself.
But at least now I know not to expect much more from you.

Thank you for listening (Nessa :) ) I appreciate it.